12.05.2009

///WONDERLAND///

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///PROUST, MARCEL///

For those that I wasn't able to tag on Facebook..

1. What is your idea of perfect happiness?
I dont' believe that any particular thing, person, or idea has/is/could made/making/make me "perfectly happy." There is always a tinge of woe.

2. What is your greatest fear?
Losing loved ones as well as being fully aware of the fading of amorous feelings. And being forgotten.

3. What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
Addiction which leads to often being visited by my good friend Depression. Also, I hate that I can only write well when I am in the mood to write.

4. What is the trait you most deplore in others?
Racism. Flakiness. Infidelity. Lying. Closed-mindedness. Fakeness. Lack of culture.

5. Which living person do you most admire?
Any person that I bother dedicating spending time with has within them something I deeply admire.

6. What is your greatest extravagance?
Living in Los Angeles - living rent, parking, car, fix car, gas, fine dining, fine drinking, shopping, phonebills [my unfortunate tendency to drunk dial ONLY abroad]. Other than that, traveling. I spend a lottt on airfares. "Best thing about LA? Leaving it."

7. What is your current state of mind?
Almost blue, almost me, almost you.

8. What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
Moderation. I know it's better for you in the long run but I've always been much more fond of extremes.

9. On what occasion do you lie?
I don't lie. I've even told my parents that I'm a Valium addict and that shrooms are the best thing ever to come of mother nature.

10. What do you most dislike about your appearance?
Sometimes when I wake up and look in the mirror, I'm not all that impressed with my face.

11. Which living person do you most despise?
I don't have enemies. But, all others aside, I often do things that make me abhor myself.

12. What is the quality you most like in a man?
- Creativity - arts, music, fashion.
- Inimitability.
- Intellect.
- Humor.

13. What is the quality you most like in a woman?
I have the tendency to be attracted to females very much like myself [equally weird, somewhat of the same fashion sense, tomboyish, troubled, crazy]. Hence the reason 90% of my friends are males.

14. Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
I'll be fine. What? Eep eep. I miss you. I love you.

15. What or who is the greatest love of your life?
My brother Ethan.

16. When and where were you happiest?
With [him/her/them] in [that place] on [that drug] laughing/talking about/doing [those things].

17. Which talent would you most like to have?
The ability to write well whenever I am required to. It would also be nice to rid of this social anxiety.

18. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
A possibly typical answer but.. Nothing. I'd like to think I love myself enough [both the good and bad things included] not to hate anything enough to want to change it.

19. What do you consider your greatest achievement?
It has yet to be achieved.

20. If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be?
Maurits Cornelis Escher.

21. Where would you most like to live?
Everywhere at some point.

22. What is your most treasured possession?
The empathy of my family and closest friends.

23. What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
When you've run out and there's no easy way out, so you get out of there and put yourself out of your misery.

24. What is your favorite occupation?
Writer. Stylist. Art/creative director. Game theorist.

25. What is your most marked characteristic?
I'm Tania.

26. What do you most value in your friends?
They're cultured.

27. Who are your favorite writers?
Kipling, Ginsberg, Hemingway, Fitzgerald, Kafka, Kerouac, Rhys, Tzara, Wilde, Miller, Burroughs, Bukowski, Nin, Stein, Silverstein, Dahl, Seuss, Dylan.

28. Who is your hero of fiction?
The old man in The Old Man and the Sea.

29. Which historical figure do you most identify with?
History was never my favorite class in school. But I can say this, Albert Einstein and I share the same birthday and we both adore mathematics.

30. Who are your heroes in real life?
My dad. No explanation needed.

31. What are your favorite names?
Alaia. Izabela. Lux. Harmony. Escher.

32. What is it that you most dislike?
[see 4.] then add: Sure having friends and family scattered about the globe is great and dandy but it also really really sucks because missing people is one of the things I hate to feel most.

33. What is your greatest regret?
Diazepam 10mg but at the same time I couldn't get a lot of the things I get done without it.

34. How would you like to die?
A la Aldous Huxley, on my deathbed asking for and being given mad hallucinogens.

35. What is your motto?
I'll be fine.

12.04.2009

///NIGHTS///

Rip and tear, sew the seams/
Live the life, catch some dreams/
Drug alphabets, X's and O's/
Die the death, cast some shadows/



12.03.2009

///KAFKA///

Needing this piece of literature in my life - "Dearest Father. Stories and Other Writings - Perhaps for Christmas.. Anyoneee?

///ENUMERATING///

Triangles, circles, squares, parallelograms, polygons, emotions, cycles, unpredictability, confusion, repetition, eyes, seeing, invisibility, transparency, prisms, purity, boldness, points, curves, walls, freedom, space, illusion, chaos, order, black, white, floating, drowning, escaping, staying, grey..
Grey grey grey.









12.01.2009

///SSEMZNEM///

Wake up, wake up, wake up/
It's the 1st of tha monthHh/

///HER///

Cigarette in mouth, smoke adrift
Topless & perfectly sagged
Black panties with meaning
Double-watching it
Television, an uncomfortable seat
But a seat nonetheless
Real foot fetish feet
He's waiting on the other end
She forgot to hang up
..again.