20140314

///PISEAS///

I'm like water
but I don't like water.

20140307

///MUTE///

 
leaf wings help a twig fly
windswept trees sing lullabyes
i'm sleeping, slipping, weeping rain
an eyeful but no drain
drowning in clouds, soft
my throat in a choke, cough
spit, strain, reach, sustain
i've had enough
 
speak to me in silence
in a muted science
with the quietest signs
cos my mouth is blind
 
my mouth is blind
but you can read my heart
an aroma it tastes and tears apart
sitting so still
my strands look aflutter
can't move, just tremble, stutter
in a flock i'm invisible
mythical, fictional, fixable
crank, screw, alter, undo
missing and missable
i've had enough
 
speak to me in silence
in a muted science
with the quietest signs
cos my mouth is blind

//////

It scares me how easily I can detach. How comfortable I am alone. How much I prefer silence. How anxious and angry people make me. How anxious and angry I make myself. How automatically my mind switches to self-destruction at the slightest upset. How I might just choose to exclude myself from society one day and never talk to or see anyone ever again.

20140306

///WHATIF///

 
sometimes..
i think what it would mean to me
if you were never ever mean to me
if i never made a mess of me
did i really have to dive that deep
just to surface free?
i hit rock bottom and forgot my being
i didn't have to kill myself to kill my spirit
you speared my heart but i wish that you didn't
was wit' you everyday, still said i was creepin'
daily conflicts had both us screamin'
concrete walls had my knuckles bleedin'
eatin' me alive, it was far from eden
you never even stopped even if i was weepin'
i never understood why we did what we did but
i know your mama left you on the side of the street and
said your grandma'd pick you up but she never appeared and
had a daughter wit' a hoodrat that you let me meet but
i just got sober yet you grew your weed here
i was fresh outta rehab you were fresh drinkin' beers and
you coulda' made me stronger but you made me weaker
from that abuse i needed a breather
now i know a guy like you is stormy weather
and never to give in to gangster pressure
and my body and my spirit are my only treasures
the scars from our wars i can't even measure
always runnin' back to you was never a pleasure
merely a replacement for past drugs of leisure
shoulda' known i didn't need drugs like escher
shoulda' always known i deserved much better
she shoulda' known better
but i knew i had to let her
experience the worst to learn her lesson
learn a strong spirit was her only weapon
the only thing to keep her from bein' stepped on
all she needed to do was shine her light on
every little shadow that would cloud her sight


20140213

///RAIN///


when it rains it never pours
it only nourishes
the orifice
it's all in your mind, love
all in your mind
 
it colors the temple
it greens the ground
it grins the frown
cos when it rains it never pours
it might influence a cloud
make it influenza cold
freeze the dew, create the mold
the leaking might make you livid
and i could tell your crib was lived in
drownin' in shadows
while i sat in my cave
curtains drawn, i caved in
to solitude
but you're a solid dude
not like that crude one i met in thai town
who never mentioned he was tied down
that was oh-six
before i met you
doin' skate tricks
in high street wit' my ex
we got to know each other through text
i liked what you were
i liked who you were
i dug how you stared
both silent but neither us cared
we took it slow
i'd neva' done that before
livin' far apart
only made me covet you more
i got your back
and you covered my soul

when it rains it never pours
it only nourishes
the orifice
it's all in your mind, love
all in your mind

whenever my plane landed
always felt like the first time, granted
we're apart for months at a time
relyin' on digital pantomime
we did long distance without reason or rhyme
just that it was love
but fights were explosive
insecurity corrosive
would rather die than be without you and live
even when we were pushed to our limits
and almost had enough
we taught each other how to trust
decided infinity or bust
jealousy and paranoia hushed
when we chose us over lust
us, till infinity or bust

when it rains it never pours
it only nourishes
the orifice
it's all in your mind, love
all in your mind

///MA-TWO-OD///


island spliff
yoga stiff
local weed
transparent seed
sphere is turnin'
tsinelas burnin'
dragonfly on skinny stalk
balisong boys on the sidewalk
feets our ride
sugarcane sides
juice it
plant it
squeeze it
cleanse
famers divide
geometry's gems
pointed lids
line green grids
herb on herb
basura absurd
barefoot knocks
on muddy earth
silence walks
for what it's worth
buffalo local
seldom vocal
carabao springfield
clouds as shields
spring to the sea
'squito bites bee
sun over tree
rays within me
& we, smoke with thee

///KINDRED///


seed sowing
plants growing
people shrinking
un-thinking
eyes that feel
moving stills
tummy churning
soul yearning
lights splaying
beats swaying
voices echo
fears let go

prism seeing
peaceful being
kindred spirit
i feel you feel it

gulp that jam
shoulder stand
sipping tea
prickly greens
crystal hearts
magic cards
velvet pants
freedom dance
shy discussion
pizza percussion
cozy cocoon
rainbow room
smoking hill
water spill
brother bear
rollie air
woven family
thursday fantasy
love on stage
incense sage
dilapidated room
bud and shroom
full moon glow
truman show
she is here
nothing to fear

prism seeing
peaceful being
kindred spirit
i feel you feel it