3.29.2010

///FEN///

VAL. My mother wanted to be a singer. That's why she'd never sing.
-Scene 21, Fen, Caryl Churchill

The irony of a true story.
& yes.. I too can relate.
Fuck.

I read this play thanks to English Literature class back in 2005
at the University of Auckland.
Rainy days & hills that always went up up up.

Beige trenches & singing:
1. A piece by one of my new favorite artists Ian Francis.
2. A photograph taken a year & three days ago from today.


3.20.2010

///HHH///

The creative process is not performed by the skilled hand alone, but must be a unified process in which "head, heart, and hand play a simultaneous role."

3.19.2010

///TELEPONO///

My mama & my seestor are dee bayst.
Fliss watch.

///UPUPUP///

That's the way things are looking.
Today is a good day.
Excuse the past few days' negativity.
The unavoidable moodswings of a growing female.

3.17.2010

///...///

Oh fuck off will you.
Were you not aware that
hatred bonds everything together in perfect harmony
?

///TOMOYO HARADA///

This song & video shall calm me
with its OCD tendencies
& soft pale color scheme
<3

Now for that long awaited knock on the door..

///CHAOS///

WITHDRAWAL IS A CHAOTIC SHITTY MESS.
Excuse my moodswings as of late.
I cannot, for the life of me, control them.

Speaking of [CTRL]..
I fucking miss you Helsinki boys.
& for my belated birthday gift,
I wish for the CTRL x SOULSTAR shirt.


///REPLACED///

It's ok, I got this to change it up:

3.10.2010

3.07.2010

///ADDICTION///

It's no fun when you're no longer [ADDICTED];
when you're in that neutral state where the bad extremities are absent.
& don't kid yourself into thinking they're going to be tardy either;
they're a b s e n t.

- Smoking a pack of cigarettes with your five cups of coffee per day.
- Popping [ANTI-ANXIETY PILLS] like little blue M&Ms.
- Taking part in hardcore revelry on a nightly basis, seven nights a week.
- Downing alcoholic beverages till you can no longer taste the alcohol & you've blacked out, but even then you keep drinking [you just won't remember any of it the next day].
- Smoking copious amounts of maryjane till you've listened to every single song on your iPod with such great zest.
- Impulse shopping like you had a black AmEx [which you surely don't].
- Dining only finely, tasting every tasting menu your stomach could stomach.

But now,
now you've for some reason run out of that addictive personality.
Not by choice [because you know you definitely want it back].
- Smoking doesn't taste as good as it used to.
- You've run out of those baby blues.
- You don't have a car to get to all those clubs anymore.
- You can't afford all that beer, vodka, whiskey, champagne, & wine you once could.
- Being stoned just means being uncontrollably paranoid nowadays.
- Shopping yourself into a starving oblivion is no longer an option.
- & the only dining you do now is not fine but fast.

Punctuality is not the issue here,
these things are m i s s i n g from your life.
& you are missing them.

..& by 'you' I mean me.

I'm sick of withdrawal.










///GUTE NACHT///

Characteristic immoderation, apple of my eye, hooded collar beige trenches, late nights, good nights, & goodnight.







3.06.2010

///LIFTED CLOGS///

Opening Ceremony:
I wanted these [& still want them] superbad when I first laid eyes on them.
The interesting double cover detail gives the shoe an unusually elevated look
not by the heel but rather by the top of the shoe.
Genius!

Now all i need to find is four hundred something dollars..






///HAIR TO BE///

My next [ADVENTURE IN HAIR] shall be a combination of the following photos..

[which means:
a further trim,
a partial lightening,
& a semi-perm -
rather sick of this long dead look]



///ASSASSIN///

Lanvin:
With sharp haircut, leather glove, & clean design
She's going [IN FOR THE KILL].
Look at that [OLD MAUVE] go!
+ that all nude ensemble.
One color is all you need.




///SILHOUETTES&SHEERS///

Margiela:
Off the shoulders & onto the hips.
Sheer bottoms rather than tops.
& crazy [FUR CAPS].

I've come to the conclusion that
I need to make some birthday purchases at [RESURRECTION].





3.04.2010

///GLUCKLICHER ZUFALL///

Child's play, science experimentation, giant coats, floral graphics, polkadot socks, big bangs & goodbyes





///WAUCHOB///

Sheer solid silk structure slashing slouching draping braiding falling tying
Golds blacks & oil/water rainbows







3.01.2010

///MMM///

A ring on a ring, a bracelet on a bracelet, a necklace on a necklace: