VAL. My mother wanted to be a singer. That's why she'd never sing.
-Scene 21, Fen, Caryl Churchill
The irony of a true story.
& yes.. I too can relate.
Fuck.
I read this play thanks to English Literature class back in 2005
at the University of Auckland.
Rainy days & hills that always went up up up.
Beige trenches & singing:
1. A piece by one of my new favorite artists Ian Francis.
2. A photograph taken a year & three days ago from today.
3.29.2010
3.20.2010
///HHH///
3.19.2010
///UPUPUP///
3.17.2010
///TOMOYO HARADA///
This song & video shall calm me
with its OCD tendencies
& soft pale color scheme
<3
Now for that long awaited knock on the door..
with its OCD tendencies
& soft pale color scheme
<3
Now for that long awaited knock on the door..
///CHAOS///
WITHDRAWAL IS A CHAOTIC SHITTY MESS.
Excuse my moodswings as of late.
I cannot, for the life of me, control them.
Speaking of [CTRL]..
I fucking miss you Helsinki boys.
& for my belated birthday gift,
I wish for the CTRL x SOULSTAR shirt.
Excuse my moodswings as of late.
I cannot, for the life of me, control them.
Speaking of [CTRL]..
I fucking miss you Helsinki boys.
& for my belated birthday gift,
I wish for the CTRL x SOULSTAR shirt.
3.10.2010
3.07.2010
///ADDICTION///
It's no fun when you're no longer [ADDICTED];
when you're in that neutral state where the bad extremities are absent.
& don't kid yourself into thinking they're going to be tardy either;
they're a b s e n t.
- Smoking a pack of cigarettes with your five cups of coffee per day.
- Popping [ANTI-ANXIETY PILLS] like little blue M&Ms.
- Taking part in hardcore revelry on a nightly basis, seven nights a week.
- Downing alcoholic beverages till you can no longer taste the alcohol & you've blacked out, but even then you keep drinking [you just won't remember any of it the next day].
- Smoking copious amounts of maryjane till you've listened to every single song on your iPod with such great zest.
- Impulse shopping like you had a black AmEx [which you surely don't].
- Dining only finely, tasting every tasting menu your stomach could stomach.
But now,
now you've for some reason run out of that addictive personality.
Not by choice [because you know you definitely want it back].
- Smoking doesn't taste as good as it used to.
- You've run out of those baby blues.
- You don't have a car to get to all those clubs anymore.
- You can't afford all that beer, vodka, whiskey, champagne, & wine you once could.
- Being stoned just means being uncontrollably paranoid nowadays.
- Shopping yourself into a starving oblivion is no longer an option.
- & the only dining you do now is not fine but fast.
Punctuality is not the issue here,
these things are m i s s i n g from your life.
& you are missing them.
..& by 'you' I mean me.
I'm sick of withdrawal.
when you're in that neutral state where the bad extremities are absent.
& don't kid yourself into thinking they're going to be tardy either;
they're a b s e n t.
- Smoking a pack of cigarettes with your five cups of coffee per day.
- Popping [ANTI-ANXIETY PILLS] like little blue M&Ms.
- Taking part in hardcore revelry on a nightly basis, seven nights a week.
- Downing alcoholic beverages till you can no longer taste the alcohol & you've blacked out, but even then you keep drinking [you just won't remember any of it the next day].
- Smoking copious amounts of maryjane till you've listened to every single song on your iPod with such great zest.
- Impulse shopping like you had a black AmEx [which you surely don't].
- Dining only finely, tasting every tasting menu your stomach could stomach.
But now,
now you've for some reason run out of that addictive personality.
Not by choice [because you know you definitely want it back].
- Smoking doesn't taste as good as it used to.
- You've run out of those baby blues.
- You don't have a car to get to all those clubs anymore.
- You can't afford all that beer, vodka, whiskey, champagne, & wine you once could.
- Being stoned just means being uncontrollably paranoid nowadays.
- Shopping yourself into a starving oblivion is no longer an option.
- & the only dining you do now is not fine but fast.
Punctuality is not the issue here,
these things are m i s s i n g from your life.
& you are missing them.
..& by 'you' I mean me.
I'm sick of withdrawal.
///GUTE NACHT///
3.06.2010
///LIFTED CLOGS///
///HAIR TO BE///
My next [ADVENTURE IN HAIR] shall be a combination of the following photos..
[which means:
a further trim,
a partial lightening,
& a semi-perm -
rather sick of this long dead look]
[which means:
a further trim,
a partial lightening,
& a semi-perm -
rather sick of this long dead look]
///ASSASSIN///
Lanvin:
With sharp haircut, leather glove, & clean design
She's going [IN FOR THE KILL].
Look at that [OLD MAUVE] go!
+ that all nude ensemble.
One color is all you need.
With sharp haircut, leather glove, & clean design
She's going [IN FOR THE KILL].
Look at that [OLD MAUVE] go!
+ that all nude ensemble.
One color is all you need.
///SILHOUETTES&SHEERS///
Margiela:
Off the shoulders & onto the hips.
Sheer bottoms rather than tops.
& crazy [FUR CAPS].
I've come to the conclusion that
I need to make some birthday purchases at [RESURRECTION].
Off the shoulders & onto the hips.
Sheer bottoms rather than tops.
& crazy [FUR CAPS].
I've come to the conclusion that
I need to make some birthday purchases at [RESURRECTION].