///SWAN///

Ballet-piano fusions will always give me passionate chills. Black Swan was frighteningly erotic; the MDMA scene made me feel like I was really rolling & the gay fantasy scene made my lesbian tendencies creep back into me. Every scene with Kunis as Lily made me squirm with lesbionic desire, but really now. & I must say, for a mere six months of training, Portman was pretty exceptional as the swan.
But this, this is the real shit. Mariinsky Mariinsky, when ever will you pass through LA ?

long, graceful, dramatic, beautiful, elegant, loving, flowing, dainty, feminine, transitional, perfect

screenshots from the "lezzy wet dream" scene
Black Swan

-

Sometimes 

I just wanna give up..

///LA///

Falling slightly in love with LA this year,

did you notice?

wanted to spent the day with you/

but i guess i'll spend the night with you/

spend a little time with you/

wear those little diamonds too/

every time you kiss me i/

wanna lay you down & i/

wanna go downtown & i/

wanna crown your mind/

meant to be that's us/

& if it makes you hate that's us/

to a sideways eight that's us/

that real LAlien lust/

What I'm wearing today
Blackberry

Eu Fumo [Bumps Neo Baile Mix]

Bumps

///BOOKED///

This evening I'm spending unpacking the rest of my novels, textbooks, magazines, & art books,

lining them up & stacking them OCD-like for people to fuck up with a satisfying joy.

I'm such a n3rd, bro.. @.o

The stairwell from my upper bedroom area to the lower living area.
I stacked the books diagonally across the top of the red separation wall.
<3
Blackberry

The Library Resort, Koh Samui, Thailand

The Library Resort, Koh Samui, Thailand

The Library Resort, Koh Samui, Thailand

Alfred Hitchcock

French bookshelf with lamp
Charles Kalpakian

There Is No There

The Books

///DTLA///

When I was fourteen, I dreamed of the city. A loft with hard concrete floors, red brick offensive to the touch, & vast daydreaming windows. At the time I imagined it to be a loft amidst the center of New York, at eye level with other neighboring penthouses, all to myself. At the end of 2009 I moved into my very first loft, but quite unlike my teenage dream it was in Downtown Los Angeles, with a roommate. A few months later, due to roommate difficulties, I moved into my second loft down the road, by myself. A mere two weeks ago I moved into my third & most desirable loft yet.

I no longer dream of moving to New York, though friends are still convinced I belong there. I've finally accepted Los Angeles as my home. & not just any part of Los Angeles, but Downtown in particular. Now that I live here, venturing out to other parts of the city seems so foreign to me. The people differ so much over this freeway & that; the walks, the talks, the styles of dress, the dogs they walk, the cars they drive.

Last Saturday for the first time in a long time I spent the day in Santa Monica, I felt almost alien, as if I'd flown to a different country altogether where I wasn't familiar with the local customs or language. Considering the fact that I spent my first one & a half years in Los Angeles living on the Westside by the beach, it was peculiar to feel uncomfortable enough to wish that I'd rather be back in Downtown. Somehow I feel like DTLA people are more down to earth, like the daily sights & interactions just walking the streets here are humbling experiences in themselves.

After holing myself up in loft after loft amidst the abandoned, the restored, the wasted, the jeweled.. & after the unconditionally friendly [at times too friendly] people of this here Downtown who, even on my shittiest ugliest days, will still holler at a sad stranger & brighten her day with unmeant comedy.. After all this, anywhere else seems rather pompous & overly materialistic. But, in saying that, perhaps to others us Downtowners have our own air of earthly arrogance.

Perhaps, perhaps.

Sunset on the 110
Ricoh

Downtown on Ice
Blackberry

View from my new loft
Blackberry

Downtown daze
Blackberry

Rainlight
Ricoh

Alley love
J

Pigeonstand
Ricoh

2nd St.
Blackberry

En route Little Tokyo
Blackberry

Olive St.
Ricoh

///BTCHSBTRPN///

Hating that fucking hater. Get high or get down.

Angelina Jolie

Cuisine
circa 2007 ?

Meijo Kaji

Female Prisoner Scorpion

///TEEBS///

Everything,

everything

I could possibly desire in a track.

Klouds
Teebs

Arthur's Birds

Teebs

///GUNNS///

! ! !

X X X

O O O

///TANIA///

california-born tania

cali-born 'nia

california

cali4nia

*

This has been my home all along.

Last Sunday at Venice Beach
my blackberry

[the photo quality is absolute turds but funnily enough i'm actually starting to like it. it still manages to tell a visual story so no matter :)
still need to uncover my ricoh camera from the moving ruins though.. shit]

soulection free download bro!